The Joanation World

Wednesday, November 11, 2009.

Yeah! Finally! My second semester is coming to an end soon! Yes, I've finished dealing with all the modules assessments! Hallelujah! Great job Joan.
Well, for the second semester, it has been the most difficult period I encountered. I shall not further explaining about the processes. Yet, throughout all these events, I learnt a lot from it. I may not be doing as good as my previous semester, but I've pulled through.

Three more modules to go, and you will be free from school! Yeah!

Currently, my thought and mood are focusing on my KL trip. Not only that, I'm yearning to see Shannen. Such a pity that I cannot attend service this Saturday service due to work. But I will find a day to visit her before she leave.

KL TRIP, HERE I COME~
Pictures will be uploaded in my facebook account. ¥(^o^)¥

"awaken my soul! I can do all things thru You who strengthens me!"
Wednesday, November 11, 2009

Having so many things on hand, I sensed breakthrough. Man! It was super awesome! Yes, there are times when I'm really really down, but at the end of the day, the result is always a smile on my face. This year has been a year of many trails and tribulations. Not only on me, but also on my family.

One of my family member is in prison, granny was hospitalized again. My dad's work make him sound like he's jobless because he don't have a lot of job offers. My sisters having serious arguments with my dad. One of my best friend passed away, and many more.

Well, all along many of you (who know me well) will know that I always understand that life will go through many parts and parcel. I'm glad that I'm not in the category of depression. All I know that though I'm disappointed with the situations, yet I still keep strong in my faith towards life. I still can happy go lucky. Sadness is only in a short moment. I never regret myself to still be the real Joan. I'm so proud of what I've been through because I learn a lot of things in life. Of course, I'm still not as mature enough to think through many things, But I will learn someday. Yeah, Joan, so proud of you! You've made many people see that life can live well as long as you stay positively! Yeah!

"awaken my soul! I can do all things thru You who strengthens me!"
Wednesday, November 11, 2009

Friday, November 06, 2009.

Miss Joan turned into an angry bee! What have you done?

I don't know what's wrong with me. Kind of feeling regretful of what I've done, hurting the relationship I've with my team. Joan, it's okay. Stop explaining for yourself. You need to REPENT!

My granny is hospitalised again. Yes, it's her finger again. I pray that she will not need to operate, I mean remove that painful finger again. I pray that she will be healed. I pray that my faith will keep on rising because I've started to lose faith. Joan, be strong and know that I am God.

My godmother came to Singapore. I stayed at her hotel with her last night. Really miss her a lot. And I'm glad that she's happier than ever. Her faith towards God is increasing. Yeah!
Tonight, I am staying overnight with her again. Yeah!

What's the greatest achievement I've done this past few weeks? Well, I'm honored to organise a birthday celebration for my classmates, or rather, friends. Today was the second time I helped my friend to organise a mini celebration. Great job Joan!

Looking forward for KL trip!
Counting down the days Shannen's coming back! Yeah!

"awaken my soul! I can do all things thru You who strengthens me!"
Friday, November 06, 2009

Tuesday, November 03, 2009.

"awaken my soul! I can do all things thru You who strengthens me!"
Tuesday, November 03, 2009

Oh Joan! You need to re-do your LGA 3! Gambatte Kudasai! Ha...
Well, all's well ends well. I don't mind having to "re-do" again. As long as it's not theological anymore. Sounds very dead man. Ha... Be More Flexible man. Yeah! That should be the way. Keep on having positive mindset on your thoughts and everything ois gping to be okay. Ha...

to be continue...

"awaken my soul! I can do all things thru You who strengthens me!"
Tuesday, November 03, 2009

Monday, November 02, 2009.

Xiang Hua and me while waiting for the train after SOS BS session

I just love to be myself! :p

I love to eat Soba~ yum yum!!

Took with my classmates, celebrating Angela's birthday!

My birthday cake made by my classmate, Quinn..

I can manage to post some of the photos of my life... So bear with it okay? I will try my best to upload more...

"awaken my soul! I can do all things thru You who strengthens me!"
Monday, November 02, 2009

Saturday, October 31, 2009.

A very BIG thank you to all! To those who has blessed me their wishes on my birthday. Hontto Arigatou Gozaimasu! I'm really Very Very Very happy for my 20th birthday! This was the first time I'm So So So So Happy for my birthday after my Mom passed away. Not that my past birthdays were worse. It's nice to have people around me celebrating my birthday. :) I'm thankful for all those that always wishes me on my birthday continually. Touched, is the only word I can describe.

Specially thankful to(not by sequence. Everyone is important to me):

1) Quinn: thank you for the lovely strawberry shortcake that you'd made. Thank you for spending your time, burning midnight oil just to bake it for me. Thank you so much for being so thoughtful.

2)Vivian: thank you for the presents that you bought. Thank you for the facial and make up products. Thank you for buying those products just to get me the Lee Ming Ho's file and the poster. I'm so touched!

3)Alex and wife: thank you for the lovely present that you all bought for me.

4)Juliet: thank you for the lovely fruit cake. Thank you for the lovely purple card and gift. Despite your busy schedule, you made an attempt to come down to celebrate for me. I'm truly very honored to have you as my boss. I'm looking forward to further collaboration. :)

5)Sally: we promised not to buy present for one another. Ha..but you did. It's my biggest surprised! Thank you for being so thoughtful. Thank you for taking care of me during work and out of work. Thank you for guiding me. Thank you for making me an even cheerful person. Because of your influence, I became more and more like you. Ha..

6)Yan Kai: thank you for the lovely message. Thank you for always calling me, asking me how am I despite our busy schedule. Ha.. Thank you for being my CGC leader. So honored!

7)Li Ting: thank you for the thoughtful things that you'd done. Thank you for celebrating my birthday. Thank you for the warmest smile I always seen from
you.

8)Sharon: thank you for your wishes. Thank you for being my cell group leader, guiding me to walk right with God.

9)Shannen: thank you for the birthday card you send in advanced. It's the first present I received this year. Thank you for all that you've done. Thank you for always remembering me. Thank you for being my friend. Thank you and your family for the warmest hospitality you always gave whenever I go your house.

10)Justina: thank you for being my wonderful sister. Thank you for the warmest loveliest hug I ever received in my life, just to wish me a Happy Birthday. Without you, I may not know where to get strength to live in this family. I love you sister!

11)Daddy: though you never give me anything for my birthday. But I just want to say thank you for being my Daddy. You don't have to feel bad that you cannot give me anything. As long as I see you healthy as ever, this is my present I will receive from you. I love you Daddy.

12)Cassie and Yi Han: truly I must say thank you for the lovely cake Cassie. And thank your for the lovely message you send to me. I'm always so happy that I'm able to be your friend. Thank you for the past events we shared together.

13)Seline: sis, we've been friends for so many years. Every year, I know that I've been saying the same old thing again and again. Yet, I still want to say, Thank you so much! Thanks for remembering my birthday. Thanks for your family love to me. Love you sis!

14)Xiao Hu: thank you for taking care of me like your sis. Thank you for always accompany me to watch movie when I asked you to. Thank you for all the stupid lame joke you shared with me. Ha..it's like you're always lifting up my happy spirit. Thanks. :)

15)Eric: Eric, just want to say, thank you so much for remembering my birthday. It's been 1year since we've last met. Thank you for being my friend. I look forward to the next Asia Conference. See you there! :)

16)Rest of the cell group members: thought I may not always be there for you all. But thank you guys for always been my shining sun whenever I'm with you. Thank you so much!

17)Sandy: thank you for still treating me as your sis. Thank you for always opening your heart, pouring your problems and things to me. Thank you for trusting me.

18)Ya Kun customers: thank you so much for the warmest wishes. Thank you for making an effort to congratulate me. You let me know that through sincerity, people will see you in a different way. Though the Ya Kun workers never wish me, but with you all, I'm strengthen to serve you better. Thank you so so much! :)

19)Friends out there: you know who you are! This thankfulness is to those who make an effort to wish me. Be it is it in facebook, or sms. I'm very touched. Thank you very much.

20)Pida: thank you for remembering my birthday, cousin Pida. Thank you for specially taking your effort to call me all the way from Malaysia. Thank you so much. :) I look forward to see you and the rest of the family next year! :)

Last but not least, my abba Daddy. You truly love me. Yes You do! Thank You for taking care of me, shelter me, showering me with Your beautiful love. You show me that through sincerity and love, the ending result is pure heart of acceptance and positiveness. Thank You Lord!

Joan, you are Officially 20! Gambatte living your life in an even greater way! Foresee yourself to meet many breakthroughs! You can do ALL THINGS through Christ who strengthens you! Yeah!

Princess Joan has ended her long listed speech. Let's live our life fruitfully! :)

"awaken my soul! I can do all things thru You who strengthens me!"
Saturday, October 31, 2009

Thursday, October 29, 2009.

My last day staying 19. My day to say goodbye to this number. My welcome to my new digit. My anticipation to expect something that will happen soon! Yeah! I'm going to end 19 well, and welcome my 20 to arrive!

I'd specially ordered something for my classmates. Hopefully they will like it. For my friends, please do make a time for me. I want to spend time with you. I want to eat with you. I want to build closer friendship with you. I want to know you better. You, yea you! You know who you are. You know that I always treasure your friendship. Despite us being so busy that we never contact one another frequenty, yet we know that we are thinking of each other. Ha..

Yesterday I read my sister's blog. It's been 2years and a half since we last have a conversation. Ya, I know what you are thinking. You cannot believe that we live under one roof yet not even able to talk to one another. Well, I'd tried so many times, but she refuse to talk. Whenever she sees me, her expression tense up. I'd apologies to her, yet she refused to accept. Come to think of it, I'd given her valid reasons about the things that had happen. She stills refuse to accept. Not only that, she didn't talk to my younger sister nor my dad as well.

In her blog, she has never mention me, my younger sister, nor my dad at all. And I read her last post. She mentioned that she's always putting on an armor. She don't like to share her feelings to others.
To me, I feel very heartbroken. I grieve for she's destroying herself. She make herself to be in the grey side. She's giving herself pressure. She's not giving herself chamber to see better things.
I wanted to tell her how much I yearn to talk to her. I wanted to tell her how much I miss her. I wanted to tell her how much I want to spend my time with her, sharing about our problems and the happy things in our life. I wanted to tell her how honour I am to have her as my sister. I yearn to see her happy face than her face tense up whenever she sees me, my younger sister, or even my dad. I yearn to tell her how much I love her. I yearn to give my love for her. But she refuse to accept it. She refuse to open up her heart to receive the wonderful power. Oh God! I deny this to be impossible. For You are a God of possibilities. I pray that she will begin to open up her heart! I bind the devil for covering her eyes on seeing truth, on seeing beautiful things, on knowing how much we love her, care for her. Lord, I deny all the negativity in my thoughts, in Justina's thoughts, and even in my dad's thoughts. I deny that this is impossible. For I do BELIEVE that all things turn out good to those who love God. I believe that this day will come! Yes! I can see the love our family has. I can see how harmony we are. I can see their hungriness on knowing what's going on with my life, why am I so faithful in going to church. Why am I so devoted to praise and worship You, rather than criticising You. I rather them to criticise me than to curse and swear You. Lord, forgive them if they ever do so. It's because You give me hope, life, light! You give me the power, the strength whenever I fall, whenever I'm at the deep pit of the valley. You give me reasons to believe that You are always there for me. You give me love that has outcast my loneliness. You have given me comfort whenever I feel alone. You give me strength whenever I'm tired. You give me hope to pull through every circumstances and know that You are guiding me on living my life. Lord, make me someone that can outshine for you. Someone that can be your representative to bring love, hope to people around me. I pray that my family will want to know You. Through you, I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me! Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I fear no evil. Your rod and Your staff they comfort me. :) thank You Lord for lifting up my faith once again. I pray that You will protect my family. Let none of us separate nor hate one another. Let us have unity, faith, hope and love with one another. I ask all this in Jesus' precious, glorious name I pray, amen.

Whenever I'm tired, even if I tried to open up my eyes, my sight is always blurrish. I pray that there's nothing wrong with my degree.

Alright, that's all for today. I'm going to spend 13hours working. And I'm left with 7 and a half hours to go. Gambatte Kudasai! You are doing great!

"awaken my soul! I can do all things thru You who strengthens me!"
Thursday, October 29, 2009

Wednesday, October 28, 2009.

I've not use my phone to blog for quite sometime... ...

2more days, and I'm coming to e number 2 on my age. Yes, I'm going 20! What a fast approaching I must say. There's still so many things I want to enjoy in my 10s life. Apparently, I'm not so ready for 20. Why? I still want to be a little girl. I'm still not ready for a sweet 20. Yet, I know, I still need to face it.
I will still be me, the same me, just that I'm turning to another digit on the first number, 20. I know that I will experience more things I've never encounter before. Yeah!

Time is really flying. Yes, I know that you may read this at least twice a month. But don't you think it so? It's so fast that I begin to see myself graduating soon. I'm graduating on the 30th of December! Gambatte Kudasai Joan-San! It's approaching soon!

Oh ya, I'm going on a Malaysia trip on the 16th to 18th of November. And I'm going with some of my classmates. Ha..so excited for it. We're heading to Kuala Lumpur. Yeah! Hopefully I will save up enough money to shop for clothes and stuffs. And hopefully, I can get some stuffs for you all! :)

Hey guys, Shannen is coming back to SG on the 14th of November! Yeah!

This coming Sunday, my family is organising a mini party for my beloved baby cousin. His name had decided. Chu Rong. Indonesian name will be Yisham.
The first week he was born, his eyes were always closing and sleeping. Never really hear him cry a lot. He is a very quiet boy. As time goes by, and now it's coming to a month. I began to see his eyes open so wide and bright! Boy, he looks like a baby hamster! So Kawaii! Suki Deyo! Feel like hugging him! :)

Oh ya, if you want to join my party, do contact me alright?! You know my number. :)

I'm counting down to this movie. And I'd already plan to watch with who. It's New Moon! Yeah! :)

Recently, I'd been so in love with this brand called, Uniqlo! I'd been buying the clothes there every week. Now, I'd stop myself so that I can save enough money to shop at KL! Yeah!

That's all for my updates. Thank you for availing yourself to read my life. I love you!
Never to forget, I love You Lord! :)

"awaken my soul! I can do all things thru You who strengthens me!"
Wednesday, October 28, 2009